For the last few days I have been on the struggle bus with awful tension headaches, extreme eye fatigue, and in the afternoon the worst symptom of all: facial flushing.

While I do have rosacea, I’ve never had anything other than redness before. So there’s a slight possibility of this being a new symptom of that. Or it could be that I’m 39 now and perimenopause is starting to kick in. While I know this is inevitable due to age, I’m certain it’s not the PM as a would be the cause.

It’s not as much of a hot flash as it is a gradual warmth that turns into an unbearable slight middle of skin ache that feels like a rubber band around a balloon at times. Then that will trigger a headache. It also lasts for hours and at no point am I sweating. It’s just so noticeable as I now struggle with staying warm in most temperatures.

I know I just need to see a doctor but my brain gets in the way. And it triggers my executive dysfunction real fucking bad. I think the least I should do is make an ophthalmologist appt and obgyn for HRT talk if that would help and be more preventative as I get older.