The worst aspects of my ADHD has been the sudden increase of issues with word recall, memory recall, and working memory. It should be no surprise that I constantly forget I have so many memory related is. When something occurs and I’m like “Oh shit I forgot,” just know that I quite literally forgot.

It’s not an ingrained response to procrastination or avoidance when someone wants to avoid responsibility. I take full responsibility on whatever happened because I didn’t remember. I didn’t go out of my way to ensure I’d be able to have access to said memory in some tangible or legible form.

Combined with my executive function I found it hard to find a coping mechanism to deal with it. But little by little I’ve been able to find various accommodations for myself. Right now I have been keeping a google calendar with recurring dates for work, credit card due dates, car payment due date, tv show dates (lol shh), and of course appointments. I combine that with a reminders for specific day parts. Early AM if I have to do it while opening at work. Afternoon right at 2p when I’m usually getting to my exit ramp. And 3p when I’m usually fully done with my get-home-from-work routine and that’s usually for paying bills.

With working on my project website, I’ve had lots of ideas flowing through with the content I want to create and how I want to organize it. However, I hadn’t been tracking anything so I keep rethinking of the same idea and then confusing myself because it’s just various iterations. It seems insane but I finally realized I do need to just write shit down. Normally I’d get sidetracked into finding a 3rd party app or program to get things settled in. I don’t wanna say how many times I try to setup Notion for stuff lol.

Anyway, I have been using the Notes app on macOS since I also have an iPhone so that ecosystem works and syncs just to my needs. I’ve made a bunch of folders in the notes for categories and I just toss in a new note for whatever crap I need to reference later. It’s still a bit chaotic but it’s actually been helpful for accessing stuff on the go. Or if I’m at work, I can just use my phone to add notes in. Simple enough for me.

It’s been weird admitting that I’m rebuilding habits and accommodations for myself so late in late. But that’s on having raw dogged most of my life, so now I don’t treat myself so poorly on it.